BREAK THROUGH ...

a day

2004-09-25T23:23:00.000+08:00

Let me tik over these few days...i did something v foolish is that i deny God for abt 5days? nv learn from me..the 2nd day i dream a dream..it was 730, & in my dream i saw myself seeing a lift spoil, a student is killing abt 10 ppl (blagadash) for $2 ??..a bit lame..i was quite sure is a dream becoz i woke up in 10 mins time & it was v clear nt lyk normally day dreaming that kind..so that time i was complain to God..in passing remarks i said "i ask for visions & dreams for almost 3 mths..nth happen & nw i decide to leave, u show to me" then i dun care, as usual i went for jog, i change a new short & put my hp into my pocket, i was shocked..i nearly took out my cross becoz i saw a $2 note in my pocket...den i decided to run..i saw abt the same gp of blagadash walking pass me..i was asking wad u 1 2 show me? the following day, the lift break down, is exactly the same floor i saw in my dreams...bt after that, i dunnoe what happen le...i ask HS for guidance bt he seem quiet so up 2 nw, i still dunnoe what is my dreams...bt fri i repent it..then i opened my bible, i find it so real, is lyk i can drink the words inside my brain..i make psa 27 to God..when i read the bible, it seem that when i read...i can saw the words ready for me mediate...2dae p&w was fun..i believe i gt abit bit breakthru..though at 1st i was nt happy..seometimes when voices cant heard, blame co-lead..play wrong thing, blame drummer...is it shd be the way? i tot for awhile...so i decided nt to play & let others play & see what will happen..though is sometimes can work & sometimes is nt i wrong..bt....Dav told me off~..he said "u shd voice out" ya..i tik i m wrong oso...i often tell ppl "frenz are always scolding for ur gd & nt sae other parties is nt rite" & true is i nt rite~ bt sometimes i feel that is guys ya~~cool..Though at 1st, i was quite angry bt the more angry is that i nv try to think b4 making any conclusion..so finally conclusion is that...2dae p&w was great....tough i know they sure will brg up in p&w mtg bt u tik i care? the one nv do wrongly, when pple sae abt u...God will turn cursing into blessing jus like god did to malachi..

What is love?

2004-09-17T15:22:00.000+08:00

Actually what is love? The bible says that love is patience, love is kind.....& Jesus died becoz he love us etc...but as i reflect what is love, the answer jus cannot be explain. My sister once upon time asking me "kor! u rather spend a girl which u really like a lot but the ger dun lyk u or a ger which lyk u a lot but u dun lyk her?" At that time, i was stunt & jus cant answer her. Normally we choose the 2nd wan dun we? but the key thing is that we only bother whom we lyk, even the person lyk u a lot but u dun lyk, u will most probably dun care at all & rather focused on the person which we like...interesting isn't it? As i typing & see the ring that Jesus gave it to me, i realised i had sinned lots & lots... i go wif my friends to sentosa den out of curious, i drank 2 slip of alchohol which i shouldn't, it taste so bitter, i play black jack though money was not involve but the intention was already there, all my guys friends jio me 2 c bikini gers, which i really nv look but indeed i go wif them. The bible says we cannot eat things that still got blood, i eat a beef which is still red meat..i mean...i was ashamed when i told u the truth. So 2dae or i shd sae rite now as i ask God what is love, HS simply told me that "look at the cross & all answered will be answered" beatiful isn't it? every time i tried to show love to my family, show love to my cell, show love even on people which i dun like, i find it limitation becoz that's my love, i never use God love...he told me to look at the cross before doing anything. I can listen sermons after sermons but most pastors they dun share love maybe becoz they oso dun fully understand? While my answers oso dunnoe but i was told that look at the cross....hope u do have the same answer wif me !!

Youth Sunday

2004-09-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

Youth sunday

Looking at the time is 1pm & i am at the main santuary & my heart now was "bing bing bong bong"...looking all the preparation & looking up and told God "today is a day of yours"..."tick tick tock tock" is 2 pm

"Da jia ping an..." shouted Dav as he & chai lead the p&w of the day. I sang, lift up my hands, clapping & jumping all the way i can and i enjoy it very much...after that, Jun Lan jie is MC of the day. She doing all the annoucements & we see the video clip. By this time, my stomach got butterfly le...but i dun care & continue to watch, quite a lot of my photos ya...lolz..after that, Jun Lan jie sae "we got 2 ppl giving testimony" & the 1st one is me..but the moments i speak, HS is the one who guide me along, and of coz i continue to share, i feel like i want to continue to share but its seem 5mins le & i need to be stop...after everything, i was so relax..praise God...then the dance part..Oh my goodness, how can PA have fault? somemore twice....i was so shocked...i say "God..." then music comes..& everything finished, it is like 4pm...i asking all the feedback...all diff kind of feedback...told u a secret..i even hug a guy i used to hate him a lot but with God love, i long time forgave him le..i rem there is a time when the adults are hugging...oh no~ i feel lyk i jus baptise that feeling..let me think, Got jane de daddy hug me (i know him a bit bit), uncle richard (the one who play drum), alvin mum, shengTat, Nigel....shake hands got dav, jon, dai ma ma, felly mum & dad & many others more...& the nite i cant slp, i still thinking of another youth again ya~~

after that, very happy & thanks God i can do..this morning i woke up, i decided to kneel down to pray for pple as usual (church, cell, family, friends etc...) normally i stand & walk with no problems, so i decided to kneel today...oh no~...i kneel only abt 30 mins...my backbone v pain...weak rite? ok la..thats all for today... update again